Sunday, April 11, 2010

I Will Carry You

I want to remember Noah.  I want to remember this journey God has us on right now.  We've got a couple things in place and some other things that are still in the works to help us remember this little one that we really haven't even met yet. 

But it's not only Noah that I want to remember.  I want to remember God's promises, His goodness and His provisions along the way as well.  I really need this because my tendency is to be more like "disbelieving Thomas" (listen to Pastor Mark's sermon today) and want proof for my faith to remain strong.  I find myself instead of talking to or even yelling at God (which I think is quite healthy sometimes) simply ignoring Him, "why talk to God when He obviously doesn't talk to me".  Now I know with 100% certainty when my brain is fully engaged and my emotions are in check that God does indeed talk to me, and not only though His word, but through those around me and through the wondrous works of His creation.  But, sometimes the days are long and I'm tired; the kids are whiney and the honey is late getting home; sometimes it just doesn't  feel like I'm being cared for by the great God of the universe and that His Spirit actually lives within me.

The words of the Selah song that I posted earlier, I Will Carry You, has really spoken to me.  It reminds me of the promises that I've made to Noah, I will carry him now in my womb and I will carry him for the rest of my life in my heart.  It also reminds me God's promise to me; that He will carry me now and through all the coming years' joys and sorrows.  I need that reminder.

So with that said, I went to Jeff Karl Jewelers and had them make me a white gold ring that says, I Will Carry You.  I absolutely love it!  It's simple.  It has weight to it.  The inscription is handwritten - so it's not "perfect" - but neither is life, I'm certainly not.  They did such a wonderful job!  When I went to pick up the ring this past Thurs, Jeff asked me if I wanted a ring box for it.  I told him that I wouldn't need one, I will never take it off.  It will forever be on my right hand as a remembrance.


Hillary said...

Oh Jenn, I love it!! I love that you have done this special thing to remember your son. You are in my prayers! Love, Hillary

Kristen said...

What a beautiful ring and an excellent idea Jenn!

McCown Family said...

I am a friend of Bree's and I have been praying for you and your precious baby, I have been talking with Bree today and I am praying for you in the days ahead. My husband is planning on bringing Bree to be with you! I love the ring! Love and prayers to you, Christine

Mitchell Family said...

Jenn, what a beautiful way to remember Noah and the Lord's faithfulness.

IvyTrueValues said...

You and your family remain in my prayers. The ring is amazing :) Blessings to you all.

June Hwang Jones said...

Hi Jenn, remember me? I clicked on a link to your blog from Sara Ketter's fb status. I spent a couple of moments praying for you and your family today. Noah is a very precious and fitting name and your ring is a beautiful remembrance of love.
June Hwang Jones